About

I’m not really sure how to begin this — which, in a way, is exactly why I’m starting it.

This blog isn’t coming from someone with a step-by-step plan for life, or someone who’s already “figured it out.” If anything, it’s the opposite. I’ve hit enough mental highs and lows to know that the in-between — the part where you're just trying to keep moving forward, even if it’s sideways — is where most of us actually live. And it turns out that space doesn’t always get talked about clearly.

So what’s The Middle Self?

It’s a phrase I came up with that felt closer to where I’m at. Not my best self, not my worst. Not my past, not some perfect future. Just... here. Somewhere in the thick of it. The middle self isn’t static, and it’s not something to escape — it’s something to observe, to be with, to move through. It’s the version of yourself that’s still forming, still adjusting, still trying to figure out what matters and what doesn’t. And for the first time, I wanted to start documenting that version — openly.

I don’t think I’m the only one who’s felt like they’re constantly stuck between states. One day you feel sharp, focused, dialed-in. The next you’re questioning your routines, your goals, even your identity. Sometimes that shift happens in the same hour. And yet, most of what we see online skips that part. We get before-and-afters, breakthroughs, and blueprints — but not the days that are just a quiet mess. Not the middle.

That’s what this space is for.

Why I’m starting this

This started with a simple realization: I can’t be the only one going through this kind of internal turbulence. The kind where your brain can swing from self-assured to spiraling in the time it takes to make coffee. Where some days feel structured and others feel like molasses. And in the absence of clarity, I wanted to at least have honesty — even if it's incomplete.

I’m not here to give advice. I don’t want this blog to be another place telling people what to do or how to live. But I do want to share what’s helped me — and what hasn’t — along with experiences I’ve learned from along the way. That includes the tangible stuff — routines, experiments, choices I’ve made — but also the mental texture around them. The doubt, the aftermath, and the quiet wins that don’t always look like progress from the outside.

Whether it’s a shift in how I move through the day, a change in perspective, or something I’m still figuring out, I’ll be writing about it here. Not to frame it as a solution — just to offer it as something real.

What you’ll find here

Some posts will lean reflective — notes on what I’m learning, letting go of, or just sitting with. Others might explore something more concrete — patterns I’ve noticed, shifts I’m making, or ways I’m trying to stay grounded. Sometimes I’ll just share the questions that keep surfacing, even if I don’t have an answer.

The goal isn’t to create a clean archive. It’s to make space for what usually gets left out.

For anyone reading this

If you’ve ever felt like you’re moving through different versions of yourself depending on the day — or like your mind and body aren’t always in sync — I hope this space feels familiar. I’m not here to distill the human experience into takeaways. Just to meet it somewhere honest.

We don’t always need a plan or a path. Sometimes we just need to hear from someone who’s still in the middle of it too. Not performing. Not polishing. Just paying attention.

Where this is going, I’m not sure — and I’m okay with that.
Glad you’re here.